Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Internship Teaches me: Patience is a Virtue

Being patient is so unbelievably difficult! I have been waiting for more than two months for my visa to leave for Saudi Arabia. I haven't heard from my boss in almost two weeks. Needless to say I am kinda freaking out. Patience has never been a strong point but it is obviously something I need to learn. I have learned patience is a necessary part of life.
All good things come in time. I have friends who are currently serving missions for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints and many of them have had to wait a very long time for visa if they are serving internationally. I can now to them in a way that I couldn't understand before. I want to leave and get to work on this internship so badly. I will be working in a school being a co-teacher of a class of children between 3-8 year old.I will also be participating in setting up a special needs education program. There will be the first educational conference in February that I will be able to contribute to. I am really passionate about what I am doing and I can't wait to start. My waiting will make me appreciate my opportunities so much more. I am so grateful for this opportunity to learn and experience. I just wish it would come a little bit faster.

I am very lucky to have a school that wants me so to work for them. They have the United States embassy and the Saudi embassy in New York City involved. They also hired an immigration lawyer. I know that everything that could possibly be done is being done. I am here and now letting the fate of this go to the Universe and God. What happens is meant to. I have done all that I can. :)


Saturday, December 14, 2013

Treat Others as You Want to be Treated

I am currently studying sociology. And if I have learned anything of personal value that I plan on applying to myself it is: People matter and how you treat people shows the kind of person you are. Life is crazy and rather short all things considered. Life is run by people. Expectations are set by people. The system is set up by people. People govern other people. If we, mankind, forget the value of people we lose some of our own value. We are fickle, emotional, crazy yet lovable beings. We far too quickly forget that other people feel just as deeply about things as we do. We feel misunderstood because we mope in our own little corn of reality. By researching people I have found that life and it's problems are repeated in every life on this planet. The circumstances might be different but by the end of life we all go through hard things, we all have to make uncomfortable decisions. Everyone gets hurt whether physically, emotionally, or mentally.

Since most people acknowledge this shouldn't we try to work around it? Shouldn't we try our hardest to spare others the pain we have already gone through? Or is mankind really so selfish that we want all people to feel the pain we have and are willing to let others suffer so that we feel justified?

Thoughts like these have been swirling around in my head since mid term. It breaks my heart to see people getting hurt.

I have found that people justify their actions so much that they don't think they are doing anything wrong. They are willing to tear down the character of the person being hurt by their actions. They get defensive when their actions are questions with genuine curiosity.

I have seen this repeatedly through out my entire life. During elementary school all the way to the present. And the problem is only getting worse. People are becoming so individualistic and self focused that they can't see beyond their own reasons.  And I think that is one reason why there is so much conflict and so many communication problems.

Self reflection is healthy. Please consider if your actions have hurt anyone. And then commit to get better. It doesn't need to be a complete  self demolition to rebuild.

I know I am not perfect at this. My blunt, kind of over the top personality offends many and people don't understand what I mean. I now am committing to fix this. There is so much good in the world, that should be the focus. I don't want to be the reason someone is hurting. If I have hurt someone it was not intentional and I hope you can forgive me.

Please, Join me. And look beyond yourself.